Trials

Do you ever have those days where feel like your world is slowly caving in on you and you don't know how you are going to make it one more day? Do you ever feel like your trials are so insurmountable that you don't really know what to do to get through them? Are there ever days where you just think that you can't take one more misstep or burden? I know that I do.

You know, today I was thinking about a couple of the trials that I am going through in my life right now and how there are days where I feel like I can barely breathe. I thought about sitting down and writing up a blog on how life doesn't ever really turn out the way that you plan it. I wanted to express my feelings on how frustrating it is to have a son with some special needs, another son who is hit and miss with potty training. I wanted to vent my disgust at having to do mounds of laundry and dishes every day. I thought about sharing some frustrations of being a mother who is trying her very best but sometimes falls a little short. I was going to share my woes on my recent realization that if I don't do it, it won't get done and how sometimes it is tough to pull off the one man show.

I was formulating all of these thoughts in my mind for one of my epic vent blogs when I came across this video made by Stepanie Nielson of the Nie Nie Dialogs. After watching this, I know that I have no room to complain about my trials. I am not saying that my trials are not significant and in their own way scarring nor that yours are not the same.

I watch this amazing woman and her family and how they are able to make it through life. I look at her and think that if she is able to make it through such a horrendous ordeal and be such a positive glowing soul, than I most certainly can come through mine.



I read a quote a while back that said: "If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab our back. I know that that is easier said than done but, often times, we don't see what others are going through. We just see what they want us to see. I look at the trials that I am going through and although I never in my life envisioned having to deal with them, I am grateful for them as they are making me stronger.

I am learning so much right now, more than any other time in my life that I need to depend on my Heavenly Father and his infinite wisdom. Another quote that I read today hit the very inner workings of my soul, "If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it." That is my new motto. I know that I am loved and for now, that is all that I need to know.